Sleep and guilt are my friend.....

So i was supposed to post to this before i fell asleep tonight.

i was also supposed to give mom her medicine before i fell asleep tonight.

i was supposed to turn out the power strip below the computer before i fell asleep tonight.

i was supposed to fix the tv before i fell asleep tonight. 

If you look at the time stamp,  it's 4:10 a.m. 

Dear body:  This "fall asleep super early,  wake up in the middle of the night" trick is not my favorite. 

Could we please reverse that a bit?  Could we stay up just an eensy bit later,  so that we could get everything done the first time,  and then sleep through until morning? 

This brings with it massive amounts of guilt.  Largely as concerns mom's medicine,  which she didn't get (again). 

Now it isn't "if she doesn't get this she will die" type medicine,  praise the Lord! 

However,  it is her dementia medicine (and her Tylenol pm.)  That's what we're down to. 

Still,  not getting dementia medicine is not necessarily a good thing. 

Hence the massive amounts of guilt,  and prayers for forgiveness and lack of repercussion. 

Did i ever mention that guilt is one of my chief emotions? 

Probably,  it ranks shortly below anxiety. 

i'm not saying that either is a Christian value,  simply that both are.

Occasionally i feel guilty about this,  that i feel guilty and worry so much.

Still,  if someone questions how someone as religious as i am can have so much anxiety,  i like to quip that they should imagine how i would be without God. 

My best estimate involves rocking in a corner and padded walls. 

Thanks God.  Praised be Your Name! 

Now to work on not being such a basket case. 

Also,  we need to work on staying up later. 

Come on body,  together we can do it. 

Alright,  back to bed now-  night all,  God bless!!